To the most special girl ever
You fell asleep and I didn’t have the heart to wake you to say goodbye. But I left you with a goodnight kiss and an I love you whisper in your ear, maybe you heard me in your dreams. I also turned the tv on with sleeper and turned the light off, I hope I set it up good for you to sleep. I’m really sorry about your art project baby, I know you worked really hard on it. I really wish I could just make it all better or that it was just me and you in this world so I could prevent these sort of things. Having you is the reason my life is perfect, no matter what happens. My life is perfect if I have you. You’re the most special, fun, and smart person ever and don’t you ever let anything make you think otherwise. I hope that you’re sleeping good right now, like a widdle baby. You are so beautiful and peaceful when you sleep. I can’t wait to live with you and have you as my wife, so I can sleep with you at night and do my best to give you the most perfect life ever. I love you honey, like no one could ever imagine. You’re amazing♥
Love,
You’re boyfriend, Chris
Also Emma,
I don’t really post on here anymore, but I have a new password protected tumb. If you’re interested I’ll give you the pw.
Emma! This is my room :)
Our desks and stuff are in a common room, kinda like a living room minus a couch and stuff, which we share with two other girls in the room next to us, and then we all share a bathroom. So it’s kinda like a mini apartment without a kitchen. But it’s neat.
Also, my camera sucks.
I posted some of the lyrics from “Feeling This” as a fb status and ironically enough, James liked it, hahahaha. I wonder if he remembers that day.
This cover is SO beautiful, omg. I’m in love. Of course nothing tops the orig but still this is amazing.
I think I will love this song forever, no matter what. When I hear it, it just takes me back to that one summer. Holding hands everywhere. My first kiss ever with James at Pirates of the fucking Carribean, lmfao. Just sitting around. Park swings and sand. Bus rides. Pool. The tennis courts. A stupid bucket of ice. Skateboards. The stupid ball necklace James always wore and his stupid pants and his sweaty shirts. And his stupid stupid hair and glass eye. His disgusting saliva. He was so funny. Everything was so perfect and carefree. I’m not missing those times at all, but I’m so glad to have them as memories. They’re some of my favorite middle school memories.
The first time I heard this song was on a bus ride. I don’t remember where to or from, but I was sitting on James’s lap and James was sitting next to Mike and I’m pretty sure Josh or maybe Frank or someone else was involved, but I know it was a big pile of us sharing two seats. Anyway, someone put that song on and I’d never heard it but everyone else knew it and was singing along. It was perfection. I specifically remember we were holding hands because the song goes “Place your hand in mine/I’ll leave when I wanna”, and I thought it was so fitting. James loved Blink-182. I remember he once said he owned all their cds, even the one with the siamese cat on it, which I guess is rare or something because everyone was impressed. I don’t know. I guess some things you’ll just never forget, you know?
I need this one back in my life. Texting sucks. He’s coming to visit me on Thursday and I so so can’t wait. These are going to be the longest 3 days ever. I think that’s why I’m miserable today. Ugh, I just can’t wait to hug him so tight and kiss those perfect lips. My friends are so excited to meet him. Almost more excited for him to come than I am. Kel offered for him to stay in our room and I’m so happy she did because I didn’t want to ask but I love that girl so much, espesh for this! Thursday he’s going to get in all 11 am, but I have class at 11:30 so I can’t pick him up :( it’s only a mile away so he said he’d walk but at least McDonald’s is right across the sidestreet from DeGraff so he can eat. Then I’m going to show him all of DeGraff and the laundry room and pool room and trash shoots and all of my friends and tell him all the nicknames we have for people. Then he can take a nap while I go to history. Then in the night us and Kel are going to see the last HP at midnight<3 then we will sleep and get Einstein’s for breakfast in the morning and hang out until 2 when I have history again. Then we can walk all around FSU and I’ll show him everything and all my favorite buildings like Bellamy and Westcott, lmao, and all the fountains and Landis green and Strozier and Starbucks and Suwannee, and the baby kittens and the Leach and the circus and maybe even the stadium if we’re up for a long ass walk. Then we shall eat lunch in Suwannee and dinner somewhere at night, maybe Chili’s since I can eat there with my meal plan. Then either Friday or Saturday Kel, Pam, Rach and I are going to take him clubbing, LMAO. Maybe Sasha will come, idk. It’s Pam’s first club so we’re going to get her all dolled up and it’s Chris’s first too. Idk where we’re going yet, not 2020, probably Baja’s or Rock Bar, but I’m so excited. I don’t really know what else to do the rest of the time he’s here, but I have a midterm next Monday so he’ll be helping me study.
I’m just so excited to see him and feel him and love him again! I love him so much I just might kill him.
I’m having such a great Friday so far! I woke up late and got a cinnamon bagel from Einstein which was nice because I always have breakfast in my room. Then I went to the UPS store and checked my mail and I had a package from Aunt Leslie (pictured above). So sweet of her omg, it made me so happy. Now I have candy and snacks and nail polish and such a variety of tea and Harry Potter pens, lol! I only had history today and my teach is out of town so we watched this really good movie. It was so weird but I’m glad we watched it. Tonight we might go to some free karaoke and cupcakes thing at my school’s club (lmao). Kell and I are dying to sing karaoke but I might chicken out. Ahhh
